Everyday gives a new start

I've always viewed life from the sidelines,
Just watching it pass me by,
In the past too afraid to just let go and live,
And lately too tired to try.

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I've envied the people around me,
So invested in living each day,
While I spent my time hiding out from the world,
And searching for ways to escape. In love but no leg

For most of my life, I truly believed,
I was here to help somebody else,
But now it's so clear it was just an excuse.
To avoid living life for myself.  Love is an action word

It's sad that our lives and the pain we endure,
Can weaken our strength to move on,
But if we get lost in the scars of our past,
Without knowing our lives will be gone.
Advice to my younger self
Its true people are disappointing,
They can turn in the blink of an eye,
But we can't avoid hurting each other,
When we all want a chance at this life. 

But there's something I've learned through the wisdom of age,
The truth about all of our lives,
And that is no matter what path we each take,
In the end, we just want to survive. 

So the time has now come to conquer your fears,
And to stand up and face a new day,
Let the hurts of your past wash away with your tears,
And stop letting your life slip away.

By Chikezie Emmanuel